Save a life, protect yourself
My Grandfather died of a heart attack when he was 63. His heart stopped in the middle of his hallway, I believe, and he died at the hospital. I was very close to him, and think he would've loved Corbin very much. I'm not close to many people in my family, but he was the one who I adored. I was just totally enthralled by him and he could do no wrong. He was smart and funny and awesome in every way. It's unfortunate, to me, that he didn't have access at the time to one of the Philips AED because if he and Grandma had one, maybe he'd still be alive. Maybe not. Maybe he would've been able to see Corbin. Maybe he would tell me that I'd be just fine as a Mom. Give me that reassuring proud smile, no matter what. I think it'd be nice. I miss him a lot though..
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Good choices/bad choices
Corbin's getting old enough now that he's learning about good choices and bad choices in daycare and his preschool program (yes preschool!). He'll tell me when he does bad stuff (smacking the cat in the head) that he made a bad choice. Or when he makes his bed that he made a good choice. I'm really proud of him and very happy with his daycare and how well they take care of him. Though on weekends when he's home with me all day, I feel a little jealous! Like he likes daycare more than me. But I can understand why. Lots of kids, lots of big space and playground. It's fun!
He's really, really cute and growing up so much. I'm excited that we're going to get his 4 year pictures soon. He's just getting so big.. I don't know what else to say!
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Futon!
So when we moved, I had to get rid of my old chair. I had this amazingly comfortable Lazy-Boy recliner that my Dad had given to me. When my old, old computer chair broke, I ended up using the Lazy Boy as a temporary replacement.. which turned permanent. But Corbin busted the back of it, jumping off of it. It was time to get rid of it anyways. But I'd been using my bed as a 'chair' so to speak. Until Monday night! Monday night I got this awesome futon. It's real big too, so it's like having a second bed in my room for Corbin or for guests (A friend of mine is coming to stay with me in a month for about a week so I'm real excited!). It may not be like a cradlesoft mattress but it's still really comfortable. I've slept on it the past two nights. Well, I started out sleeping in my bed, but Corbin's getting so big now that my twin size bed doesn't fit both of us comfortably. He kicks in his sleep...
Anyways, so when he comes to sleep with me at 4 or 5am, I just pull out the futon and tuck him into my bed and fall asleep on the futon. Still, by the time we get up at 8:30 he's curled up with me again but at least there's room to cuddle!
Speaking of cuddling.. I need to drag out and wash the winter blankets.. It's starting to get chilly and the summer blankets just aren't gonna cut it!
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Oh man..
So, I was wandering around Wal-mart the other day, looking at their seasonal section and noticed they're starting to tear down 'summer' stuff. Flowers.. gardening equipment.. barbeque stuff.. That sort of thing. And I realized how close we are to a lot of things. Season-wise. We're so close to starting the shopping for holiday gifts.. We're close to Thanksgiving.. Corbin's birthday shopping.. It seems like so much is coming all at once, and I didn't even realize it! We really ought to start holiday shopping now that way when Christmas/birthday comes, we're ready.
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Control
I am by no means a control freak. I do not need everything to be in precisely the right order. I even like a little bit of chaos sometimes. But I feel lately, that there's such a loss of control. Things have not been 100% okay lately and I'm working through it. We hit tough times, but everything'll be fine. I keep telling myself that. So at a time when I have no control and chaos is everywhere.. I've been trying to find ways of gaining a small amount of control, to feel safe. To feel secure. So I rearranged the living room. And I'm trying to think of how to arrange my room. I need to deep clean it. Move everything and vacuum/sweep. I've been very on top of things lately. It's been real nice. Hopefully soon things in my life will be back in order.. but until then, at least my house can be in order. Right? 
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Life insurance
I keep seeing commercials lately for insurance companies that have their life insurance quote, car insurance quote and house insurance quote all in one little package. Isn't that neat? Kind of a nice consolidation instead of having to go to three different companies? And a lot of times you can get all three of them in a package for cheaper than getting them separately. I've never really thought about life insurance in terms of me. I've always thought of it in terms of my older family members.. my parents, you know? Well, my grandparents are all dead really, so who else am I going to have to think about? :p
Putting it in terms of life insurance for myself, making sure Corbin is financially secure to handle my death.. God that's an awkward feeling. Very terrible and unsettling, but it's also a fact of life. Death is part of the life cycle. Ah speaking of Corbin.. he's getting into something so I better run.
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Spring weddings?
A few years ago, it seemed like all my friends were getting married. And the majority of them were having spring weddings. And it always made me wonder... Why? Why Spring? I always favored Fall personally. I know one of my friends who had her wedding at the end of September. I couldn't make it, but it was a beautiful fall day.. She had the most wonderful setting for it. The leaves were just starting to turn, so they were just absolutely gorgeous to offset her and her husband's outfits. It was just gorgeous.
I think I'd much prefer a fall wedding, since it's cooler but not too cold. It's got the interesting scenery. Everything's changing and it's really beautiful to watch. I guess some people would see fall as like, "death" of the birth that came with Spring. I don't see it that way at all. I see it as change. Just change. And change can be good, can't it?
I kind of have my heart set on a fall wedding, if I ever get married. Of course, I'd have to buy bridal shoes, outfits, jewelry and all that jazz. I hate shopping for clothes and jewelry. I can get away with shopping for shoes. It's not nearly as annoying. But clothes? Jewelry? Never mind that I don't even wear jewelry anymore. It'd just be weird!
Nevertheless, shopping for bridal shoes to match my imaginary pretty dress is kind of fun.. Is it bad that I'd buy the shoes first and then the dress?
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Shoe time.
It's about that time of year that we need to start buying new shoes for Corbin. He's outgrowing the ones he has, and even though they're adorable Yo Gabba Gabba ones.. I'd rather him have shoes that fit comfortably. Now it's a matter of finding the right brand, size and price. Dansko shoes has some really cute shoes for all sizes of adults but I don't see any kids shoes there. Maybe they don't make them or maybe I'm looking in the wrong area. Either way.. it's time to buy shoes again. Ugh.
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Corbin’s songs…
Corbin likes to run around the house and sing. I encourage this and love this behavior about him, but some of the songs he sings are just so funny..
"I'm a gummy bear.. I'm a gummy bear.. I'm a... I'm a... I'm a gummy bear..."
Or he'll sing "Hungry, Hungry Hippos!" except it'll be "Hungry, hungry CORBIN". He finds it to be the most hilarious thing ever. That and there's a song he learned at daycareSCHOOL (he refuses to let us call it daycare) that I've heard him sort of singing.. Something about clap, clap, clap and then later on "in our lap, lap, lap".. I don't really know because he'll only mumble it. But it sounds cute!
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Oh man..
I'm so tired today. We're trying to keep Corbin on a solid schedule every day, to make naptime at daycare a bit easier. I am so not adjusted to getting up at 8am every morning. I'm sooo not a morning person. I basically wake up, make sure Corbin's up, and then don't talk to anybody for about 15 minutes. That gives me time to 'wake up' and not be a zombie.
Speaking of Corbin, my bed is covered in kittens and Corbin. I have a twin sized bed that I use as my computer chair as well, and sometimes my desk (lol), but right now... there are five kittens, one Cici and one whole Corbin. There was much squirming! The kittens are getting sooo cute now. We take them out of their blanketed box/bed and let them roam for a bit every day. Some of them just stay close to Cici but some of the others take the opportunity to go explore. There's a white and calico-ish one that is just all about exploring and cuddling. She came over to me (long trek for kitten legs) and started nuzzling in my lap. Very cute.
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